So it's that time of the year again, when I get even older than I already was. Sharon keeps asking me what I want for my birthday, and really, other than a cookie scoop, there is nothing in particular that I want at the moment. Just to make it easier for anyone who wants to buy me a present, here is a list of ideas.
All I Want For My Birthday Is...
1. Cookie scoop! T_T
2. 648 layer croissant.
3. DVD (Alias, Family Guy Season 4+ come to mind).
4. Stuff for scrapbooking
5. Poker chips of casino size and weight (just to practice for work)
Time for work, that is all I can think of for now. Hope it's helpful!
Thursday 26 March 2009
Wednesday 18 March 2009
Making the Cut
I passed my final table test today, so now I'm allowed to go and deal to people playing with real money. It's a bit saddening, our six weeks of training is nearly over. We lost a few people along the way, but we've all become really close, which I really like.
With the past month and a half of full time work, I've come to see that there is too much going on in my life, and just trying to fit everything in has made me feel so exhausted that I pretty much fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow. It will be good after the SEE AGM (3 more weeks to go...) to give up my position as treasurer, because... I don't even know where to begin really. I guess I've just moved on from a lot of things, and without a computer, gaming has become something that I remember doing in the past, but don't really feel compelled to do now.
It just seems like ever since I started working, time goes by so fast, and I don't really remember doing anything. I was talking to Dante about how it felt as though I hadn't had time to myself in a while, and he said that I should just turn my phone off for 2 days, stay away from the computer, and relax. I'm torn because on one hand, I feel so guilty that I haven't been able to spend time with anyone due to work at uni taking up nearly every single hour of my day, but on the other hand, mostly I just want to sleep. I guess that's the other reason I'm resentful towards SEE at the moment. The only day I really get to sleep in is taken up with running errands for SEE, and I hate it. I spend weekend mornings ferrying my family around, which is also getting on my nerves.
Anyway, it's another ending in my life, and there were good and bad parts to it, but I guess I don't really regret having done it. I met some nice people, and tried some games I probably never would have touched before (TF2, L4D).
I think it's a bit selfish to want to offload things onto other people, but I really can't do this any more. I wanted so much to take a break from work, and our trainer said that gaming licenses were being held up at the moment, and if we don't have a license, we're not allowed onto the floor to deal, but unfortunately for me, mine got through somehow, and so I'll be starting as soon as possible. I just wanted to rant about it here, since I can't do it at work because so many of the others are really pissed off that they don't have their license yet.
This is probably why most of the dealers said most of their friends are from work, because they keep the same hours, so it's easy to hang out, nobody else can really understand how annoying it is to have a player that does X, and it seems like you end up practically living and breathing your work that the world outside drifts away.
I'm probably just being a tired emo bitch who is now going to bed.
With the past month and a half of full time work, I've come to see that there is too much going on in my life, and just trying to fit everything in has made me feel so exhausted that I pretty much fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow. It will be good after the SEE AGM (3 more weeks to go...) to give up my position as treasurer, because... I don't even know where to begin really. I guess I've just moved on from a lot of things, and without a computer, gaming has become something that I remember doing in the past, but don't really feel compelled to do now.
It just seems like ever since I started working, time goes by so fast, and I don't really remember doing anything. I was talking to Dante about how it felt as though I hadn't had time to myself in a while, and he said that I should just turn my phone off for 2 days, stay away from the computer, and relax. I'm torn because on one hand, I feel so guilty that I haven't been able to spend time with anyone due to work at uni taking up nearly every single hour of my day, but on the other hand, mostly I just want to sleep. I guess that's the other reason I'm resentful towards SEE at the moment. The only day I really get to sleep in is taken up with running errands for SEE, and I hate it. I spend weekend mornings ferrying my family around, which is also getting on my nerves.
Anyway, it's another ending in my life, and there were good and bad parts to it, but I guess I don't really regret having done it. I met some nice people, and tried some games I probably never would have touched before (TF2, L4D).
I think it's a bit selfish to want to offload things onto other people, but I really can't do this any more. I wanted so much to take a break from work, and our trainer said that gaming licenses were being held up at the moment, and if we don't have a license, we're not allowed onto the floor to deal, but unfortunately for me, mine got through somehow, and so I'll be starting as soon as possible. I just wanted to rant about it here, since I can't do it at work because so many of the others are really pissed off that they don't have their license yet.
This is probably why most of the dealers said most of their friends are from work, because they keep the same hours, so it's easy to hang out, nobody else can really understand how annoying it is to have a player that does X, and it seems like you end up practically living and breathing your work that the world outside drifts away.
I'm probably just being a tired emo bitch who is now going to bed.
Sunday 8 March 2009
Check
We had a new trainer at work for a while who had each of us run through a full game, with everyone else being players, and every time we made a mistake, the players weren't meant to tell the dealer what the mistake was, but simply say, "Check" to tell the person that they had made a mistake ("Check" as in "Check what you are doing", not the chess-"Check"). It was kinda fun to begin with, since we're still noobs and made lots of mistakes, but some people are starting to get a bit annoyed at the whole thing. It was kinda funny though when I said it to Kevin, and he kept looking at the chips in front of him trying to work out what the problem was, and everyone else was second guessing themselves and recalculating the payout, but his mistake was that he had let the wheel stop. >_<
Anyway, WG was complaining about the whole checking thing because he thought that telling someone they had made a mistake made it more likely that they would make another one, and most of the checks are for minor details anyway, and don't really affect the game (such as using the wrong hand for something), so it would be better to just tell the person what the mistake is.
I agree on some level, but I think the checking system is working for me. I find I'm paying more attention to what I'm doing because I don't want to go to the trouble of having to identify my mistakes, and when I get checked, it's usually for a few reasons, and I'm getting to know what those are, so I'm focusing more on avoiding them, whereas when someone was just telling me my problem, I'd fix it then, and then forget about it until the next time I did it.
I bumped into AG today for the first time in a while. Every time I talk to him, it feels like he's criticising something about me, and usually makes me feel like crap afterwards. Even if I do manage to come up with a good comeback, it never makes it out of my mouth, and it pisses me off to no end.
It would have been nice if someone had been there to say, "Check" to me while we were together, though I guess the nature of the relationship kinda meant we had to keep it a secret. I think that's one of the good things I like about having told people about MrMan5.5, I can get their opinion instead of just relying on my emotionally biased opinion. When we first starting dating, QC noted that we were really fast to set our relationship status on Facebook. She said people usually wait a month before doing something like that. I guess it was a bit fast, but for me, there were a couple of reasons for it. One reason was Charmeleon. After QC, the first person I told was Charmeleon, for obvious reasons, as being with MrMan5.5 made me off limits for booty calls, and I guess setting my Facebook status was my way of reminding him of the fact, and setting it in concrete. The major reason was because I didn't want to end up with another secret boyfriend who I had to sneak out of the house at the middle of the night to see, or make excuses about doing something with a "friend" (although if you think about it, it's technically true). If all of my friends knew about him, it was bound to slip out to my parents eventually - especially since some of my extended family members are able to see my Facebook, and would probably have asked my parents about it in the end, so it was motivation to make sure my parents heard it from me rather than from my aunt who heard it from her daughter, or something like that.
I haven't regretted telling them so far, and it makes things so much easier. If I'm not at home, they just assume I'm out with him, and they're fine with us staying out late at night since he has a car and can drive me home. Other than that though, one of the nice benefits is that I get other people commenting on our relationship. While I'm not entirely comfortable discussing all the details with people I don't know so well, some of them are able to comment on things that the people who know both of us fairly well tend to miss, and it gives me more things to think about. Plus, they're able to say things about him that people who are friends of both of us wouldn't. None of the feedback has been negative so far (so I'm not thinking about ending it or anything!), but the conversation sometimes leads to things I'd never thought about before, and then I tell MrMan5.5 about it (such as the whole scary girlfriend thing).
OK, I think I've waffled on for long enough - this post originally started out as a post of me just bagging the crap out of AG, but as Olek pointed out, that's not very constructive, so I decided to post this instead. Less drama, but hopefully in the future, someone with check me when I go and do something that'll be bad for me in the long run.
Anyway, WG was complaining about the whole checking thing because he thought that telling someone they had made a mistake made it more likely that they would make another one, and most of the checks are for minor details anyway, and don't really affect the game (such as using the wrong hand for something), so it would be better to just tell the person what the mistake is.
I agree on some level, but I think the checking system is working for me. I find I'm paying more attention to what I'm doing because I don't want to go to the trouble of having to identify my mistakes, and when I get checked, it's usually for a few reasons, and I'm getting to know what those are, so I'm focusing more on avoiding them, whereas when someone was just telling me my problem, I'd fix it then, and then forget about it until the next time I did it.
I bumped into AG today for the first time in a while. Every time I talk to him, it feels like he's criticising something about me, and usually makes me feel like crap afterwards. Even if I do manage to come up with a good comeback, it never makes it out of my mouth, and it pisses me off to no end.
It would have been nice if someone had been there to say, "Check" to me while we were together, though I guess the nature of the relationship kinda meant we had to keep it a secret. I think that's one of the good things I like about having told people about MrMan5.5, I can get their opinion instead of just relying on my emotionally biased opinion. When we first starting dating, QC noted that we were really fast to set our relationship status on Facebook. She said people usually wait a month before doing something like that. I guess it was a bit fast, but for me, there were a couple of reasons for it. One reason was Charmeleon. After QC, the first person I told was Charmeleon, for obvious reasons, as being with MrMan5.5 made me off limits for booty calls, and I guess setting my Facebook status was my way of reminding him of the fact, and setting it in concrete. The major reason was because I didn't want to end up with another secret boyfriend who I had to sneak out of the house at the middle of the night to see, or make excuses about doing something with a "friend" (although if you think about it, it's technically true). If all of my friends knew about him, it was bound to slip out to my parents eventually - especially since some of my extended family members are able to see my Facebook, and would probably have asked my parents about it in the end, so it was motivation to make sure my parents heard it from me rather than from my aunt who heard it from her daughter, or something like that.
I haven't regretted telling them so far, and it makes things so much easier. If I'm not at home, they just assume I'm out with him, and they're fine with us staying out late at night since he has a car and can drive me home. Other than that though, one of the nice benefits is that I get other people commenting on our relationship. While I'm not entirely comfortable discussing all the details with people I don't know so well, some of them are able to comment on things that the people who know both of us fairly well tend to miss, and it gives me more things to think about. Plus, they're able to say things about him that people who are friends of both of us wouldn't. None of the feedback has been negative so far (so I'm not thinking about ending it or anything!), but the conversation sometimes leads to things I'd never thought about before, and then I tell MrMan5.5 about it (such as the whole scary girlfriend thing).
OK, I think I've waffled on for long enough - this post originally started out as a post of me just bagging the crap out of AG, but as Olek pointed out, that's not very constructive, so I decided to post this instead. Less drama, but hopefully in the future, someone with check me when I go and do something that'll be bad for me in the long run.
Thursday 5 March 2009
UR DOIN IT WRONG
Lately I've been talking with someone from work about relationships, and it seems that his relationship so different from the one I have with MrMan5.5. It made me think about all the guys I know from WoW who seem to dread hangin out with their girlfriend, and always complain about having to call her all the time. He was joking, but Work Guy said he'd pay me $25 to break up with his girlfriend for him, and I asked him why he couldn't just do it himself for free, and he said that he couldn't.
So two things:
-what is it that I'm not doing to make MrMan5.5 scared of me/dread spending time with me/not want to pay someone $25 to dump me?
-why do guys stay with people that make them seem so miserable?
LIFO - last in, first out. I should really be going to bed, so I've given myself 20 minutes to type up this blog post, and I think the second question is more interesting than the first, even though the first question is what I was referring to in the title - I kinda think my thoughts on the first question would be more emo-whining about my relationship and I really don't think anybody wants to read that at the moment, so my thoughts on the second topic.
Well, the first obvious answer is: sex. But then if your girlfriend is withholding from you, and you spend most nights having an affair with your hand, I think you're getting a bit of a raw deal - and if that's not the case, then wtf are you doing playing WoW all night?! Seriously though, there are so many girls out there who would sleep with you, and I'm pretty sure you could find someone who gets along with you better than your current girlfriend if it's at the point where you sigh every time you see her number on the caller ID.
She might be a crazy-crazy, or do the emotional blackmail/crying thing where you feel bad for breaking up with her, or she says she can't live without you and you're worried for her mental health, so you can't seem to drag yourself away. Hopefully nobody is in that category, but in case you are, perhaps you should think about your own mental health and how having someone like that around you could affect your life - I'm not saying people like that are bad, but they're not for everybody.
It might be possible that you don't think you'll ever find anyone else.
Oh, time has run out, I'll continue this later. Sorry for the lack of posts - computer is dead, so I've borrowed MrMan5.5's laptop for now. Work is going well, have a test on the 17th of March. Work + uni is kinda killing me though, fell asleep twice today, and should really be playing catch up on sleep. 'Night!
So two things:
-what is it that I'm not doing to make MrMan5.5 scared of me/dread spending time with me/not want to pay someone $25 to dump me?
-why do guys stay with people that make them seem so miserable?
LIFO - last in, first out. I should really be going to bed, so I've given myself 20 minutes to type up this blog post, and I think the second question is more interesting than the first, even though the first question is what I was referring to in the title - I kinda think my thoughts on the first question would be more emo-whining about my relationship and I really don't think anybody wants to read that at the moment, so my thoughts on the second topic.
Well, the first obvious answer is: sex. But then if your girlfriend is withholding from you, and you spend most nights having an affair with your hand, I think you're getting a bit of a raw deal - and if that's not the case, then wtf are you doing playing WoW all night?! Seriously though, there are so many girls out there who would sleep with you, and I'm pretty sure you could find someone who gets along with you better than your current girlfriend if it's at the point where you sigh every time you see her number on the caller ID.
She might be a crazy-crazy, or do the emotional blackmail/crying thing where you feel bad for breaking up with her, or she says she can't live without you and you're worried for her mental health, so you can't seem to drag yourself away. Hopefully nobody is in that category, but in case you are, perhaps you should think about your own mental health and how having someone like that around you could affect your life - I'm not saying people like that are bad, but they're not for everybody.
It might be possible that you don't think you'll ever find anyone else.
Oh, time has run out, I'll continue this later. Sorry for the lack of posts - computer is dead, so I've borrowed MrMan5.5's laptop for now. Work is going well, have a test on the 17th of March. Work + uni is kinda killing me though, fell asleep twice today, and should really be playing catch up on sleep. 'Night!
Sunday 1 March 2009
YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!!
They're back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was looking for soycheese and just happened to walk past the chip aisle and there it was. My life has meaning again.
I was looking for soycheese and just happened to walk past the chip aisle and there it was. My life has meaning again.
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