Makin' It Up

Until recently, my wardrobe consisted of jeans and T-shirts, with a few jumpers for Winter (and underwear, of course). I've never considered fashion important, but considering the fact that two of the things I enjoy most, playing games and watching movies, are typically done in the comfort of my own (or MrMan5.5's) home, comfort reigns over style. I know though, that clothes maketh the man, and so lately, I've been trying to play catch-up for all the years of wearing whatever my mum thinks looks nice as I want to look like a mature, responsible person in the workplace. Luckily, I've been getting help from Julian's wife Lucy, and so I now have the beginnings of a corporate wardrobe sitting in my room.

Sometimes I just feel like it isn't me. QC says she doesn't trust someone who is heavily made-up (as they can't be honest if they're wearing that much make-up to hide something), and to a degree, I feel the same way. With the exception of Charlotte, Lena and Vidya, I assumed that any girl who looked like she spent more than 10 minutes in front of a mirror in the morning but also considered herself a gamer couldn't possibly be any more skilled than the faux gamer girls who always make such a big deal about their gender in order to get attention (played with one in HoN the other day who kept whining that the other team kept killing her because she was a girl.... Er, no, they kept killing you because you had half the HP of any other person on our team. Ended up muting her). It's like you can level up one skill, at the expense of another.

Still, I can complain about the double standard of women being expected to wear make-up all I want, but it's not really going to change the fact that it's there, so I'm going to have to live with it. Compared to all of the other girls at the graduate program assessment centres, I looked like some hobo the graduate hiring team grabbed off the street, put in a suit, and told to play nice with the others. Although, one of the recruitment staff at Ericsson really liked my shoes (that Lucy picked out), and I think that was one of the biggest advantages I had at the group assessment. I guess a part of me is hoping that with all of this shopping and make-up stuff, the girly-girl inside me will suddenly wake up and realise it's her time to shine.

I feel like I have Lucy on one shoulder telling me, "Yes, Anna, you could be pretty if only you tried!" and QC on the other shoulder telling me, "Anna, you're a noob at fashion. Do you really want to be that feeder that everyone votes to kick 5 minutes into the game? Buy some DVDs instead."

On the plus side, hanging out with Lucy has been really fun. It's a bit refreshing to spend time with someone who isn't a geek, and she took me to see a ballet the other day which was new and interesting. Although now I'm probably going to force my kids to do ballet so that I'll get free tickets sometime in the future. She told me that a friend of hers got rejected by the Australian Ballet Company for having big boobs (where big means larger than A cup), so I'm not too sure how that'll work out if boob size is genetic which I believe it is, at least partially. =/

(Hmmm, now I am starting to wonder if I am one of those girl gamers who games just for the sake of attention from guys. Just running over a list of my friends, most of them are male friends from gaming. Those that are not are either uni friends who are into gaming, or primary/high school friends. Oh, and work people - most of whom are gamers, too. >_< I'm friends with 6 Andrews + an Andy and they are all gamers. Urgh, need sleep and possibly do not want to think of myself as a pseudo gamer girl any longer.)