Forget You

I was talking to Olek a couple of nights ago, and he said that I should try to swear more. First, let me clarify that I do swear, just not often. Not because I have a moral objection or anything, it's just that when something happens that would normally cause swear, the first word that comes to mind is usually something else. Olek says that "fuck" is such a good and versatile word, and I agree, but at the same time, I think it's also a downside. There are so many words in the English language, and yet when given the opportunity to use them, so many people just resort to using fuck. There are so many ways to insult someone's intelligence: idiot, moron, imbecile, fool, halfwit, thick-headed - but some people seem to think the list looks a lot more like this: shithead, shithead, shithead, shithead. I don't even know what that word even means. =/ (According to wikipedia: Shithead is an insulting term for a person that is ignorant, narrow minded, cruel, and/or unintelligent.)

I've had a conversation with someone at work which went something along the lines of this:

(I turn over my hand, 4 of a kind: kings)
Patron: Fuck you.
(I turn over Patron's hand, full house: kings over aces)
Me: I'm sorry, but your bet lost, I have to take it.
Patron: Fuck you.
Me: Sometimes it's hard to hit a hand.
Patron: Fuck you.
Me: Do you mind watching your language, the other patrons at this table might not appreciate it?
Patron: Fuck you.
Me: If you have a problem with me, maybe you'd like to talk to my supervisor.
(I call over my supervisor)
Supervisor: Is something wrong?
Patron: Fuck you.
Supervisor: I'd like to ask you to stop swearing.
Patron: Fuck you.
(Supervisor calls over pit boss, security escorts him out)

(One of my trainers suggested I say "It's hard to get a hand, isn't it?" when patrons get angry at a loss, it usually works, but in retrospect, that probably wasn't the right thing to say, as the guy did hit an awesome hand. Maybe I was subconsciously antagonising him - he was a bit of a shithead.)

I've just found that when you start swearing, things usually get out of hand. The person you're talking to gets defensive, you both get angry and probably end up forgetting what the original problem is, because you've both gotten so worked up. I don't know, it just seems counter-productive.

That being said, I'm starting to wonder if the story I'm writing for NaNo feels less realistic because the dialogue in it is so PG. In fact, if you take out the sex, and possibly some violence, almost everything I write (including my blogs) seems pretty boring and PG. Sure, the whole infrequent swearing thing really helps me keep calm when people get angry at me, but sometimes I think that when I'm angry, nobody even notices.

On the drive home from Paul's tonight, I spent a lot of time thinking about the way I talk and express myself, but also the way that I think. Tong commented that after I arrived, the topic of conversation at the game of 500 turned to sex, and as I've mentioned before, that seems to be somewhat of a habit of mine. Is it because it's something I think about a lot, or talk about a lot? I think I have a few friendships that are entirely based on the fact that they want a girl to talk about sex with (and potentially WoW and relationships).

Seeing as I've mentioned it a few times, maybe I should try to change this pattern. Maybe there's like some trinity of vices - sex, drugs and rock 'n' roll swearing - and if you spend too much time on one, it's to the detriment of the others. I should try out other ways of expressing myself, because maybe it'll lead to newer experiences for myself, or at least make me a better writer.

As for the title of this blog, in case I forget the reason myself, it's the title of a song by Cee Lo Green, but I believe it's just the title of the radio edit of the song, the original being "Fuck You".